The big 40

So the big 40 is just around the corner and I'm not quite sure how I feel about it????

I have been looking forward to the party side of it as my partner Deuayne is also turning 40 in the same month, so sharing it with him is pretty special.

But what does 40 really bring???? At the moment I feel a little disheartened at the fact that at 40, I really dont have alot behind me..meaning, no house (yet), bonds, investments..things to set up my children, if by some really bad luck, they will need it sooner rather than later.

I have owned a house before, but because of some not so great life decisions, I am renting......which there is nothing wrong with it...but I remember when my Dad was 40...

He and Mum, both worked hard, my brother and i had the 3 bedroom house with pool, in a great street etc..and we went on holidays....but we were never really treated to the materialistic things of the world unless it was a special occasion...like a birthday..not just because you were great at sport that weekend, or got a certificatea t school.

So perhaps life does begin at 40!!! I now have more direction in my life with Deuayne and the kids are so settled...and i see us one day having that  golden pot at the end of the rainbow someday...but I realise that for some of us....beginning all over again at this stage in our life is as, or if not more scary than if you were doing it at 21......,