Saturday 16 June 2012

exhausted continued

However all went off without a hitch.. everyone was fed, had plenty to drink. Kids were well behaved, band rocked the night away ( Fortunate Sons) awesome.....

But a few trips home of food, presents and all bodies accounted for by my amazing friends, i get home thinking, yeah lets party on with a few more beverages....

But alas, this chicky was ready for a cup of tea and bed.

Lefe begins at 40???? Perhaps tomorrow!!

Exhausted

Wow, what a week. Finally had the big 40 party. Deuayne and I had a joint party ( 3 days between us), and what a great night and we have some amazing family and friends that we adore and that we realise also, that we are blessed to have in our lives.

But why is having your big event so stressful??? (Well for me anyway).
I was lucky enough to have my gorgeous Aunty visiting from Wagga, who helped me out while I was having the party nervous breakdown. Do I have enough food? Do i have enough plates? Is there enough for the kids to do ( count crayons and bubble containers)??

But all started out well. Say hi to everyone as they walk in ( most you dont see again until they leave or have birthday cake) get yourself a drink since it is your birthday ( miss place drink at least three times).....but wait???? Where is the food that I have ordered to much of....nearly an hour late????

Panic sets in. Already paid for food that has not turned up....think quick..Domino's is          across the road..divide 130 people by how many supreme and meatlover pizza's????

Sunday 3 June 2012

The big 40

So the big 40 is just around the corner and I'm not quite sure how I feel about it????

I have been looking forward to the party side of it as my partner Deuayne is also turning 40 in the same month, so sharing it with him is pretty special.

But what does 40 really bring???? At the moment I feel a little disheartened at the fact that at 40, I really dont have alot behind me..meaning, no house (yet), bonds, investments..things to set up my children, if by some really bad luck, they will need it sooner rather than later.

I have owned a house before, but because of some not so great life decisions, I am renting......which there is nothing wrong with it...but I remember when my Dad was 40...

He and Mum, both worked hard, my brother and i had the 3 bedroom house with pool, in a great street etc..and we went on holidays....but we were never really treated to the materialistic things of the world unless it was a special occasion...like a birthday..not just because you were great at sport that weekend, or got a certificatea t school.

So perhaps life does begin at 40!!! I now have more direction in my life with Deuayne and the kids are so settled...and i see us one day having that  golden pot at the end of the rainbow someday...but I realise that for some of us....beginning all over again at this stage in our life is as, or if not more scary than if you were doing it at 21......,