Unsure

Have you ever felt the need to write shit down, that at the time it makes sense but really never ever makes sense. You just want to write and be heard and to think that someone is actually listening to you, but really they are just reading but are they really hearing you.

I have so much to say but cannot. I need to be myself but what is that really. Is being myself running around being super mum, because I really like to think I am. Is being myself being the one that goes to work, that the job you have isn't enough and apply for everything but get nowhere, is being myself. Is supporting everyone around you in what they truly love and what they are happy doing fulfilling their lifelong dream, being myself?

Is being myself writing every 12 months in a blog just to think that maybe what I have to say is trashy enough to end up on Mama Mia?..

So I guess it's kinda clear that I'm a little lost in my life direction. I'm forever on the roundabout of justifiability and patience that never pays off. I'm lost in the fact that though I'm an awesome mum and kick arse fiancée that I wAnna be great in what I want to do, but I don't know what I want to do. I'm so super proud of my boys and the men they are becoming. I'm super proud of my fiancée and the life he wants for us, but I'm just not proud of myself.

Stay tuned

Omg it feels like forever ..... Stay tuned so much to say so much to talk about!!!!

Post Christmas food coma!!!!!

Ok, so is everyone else rolling around everywhere, after the amount of food ( and alcohol) they have consumed before, during and after Christmas???/

And New Years Eve, still to come!!!

Every year, its the same. " I wont eat that much this year", but then there is that one thing you cant go without, that you majorly over indulge on!!!

The Christmas ham, the pavlova??? Prawns, roast pork, Christmas pudding...... but the nibblies before!!! Oh the cob loaf, French onion dip, Brie!!! The list goes on!!!

Now I can hear you all going, OOhhhh I ate too much!!!!

But there are those of you, that have made that exceptional effort to continue your great eating and excersise habits. Power to you!!! I wish I could!!!!

Ive been there, many times!!! Feeling awesome, eating well, exercising!!! But it is a continual roller coaster for me!!!

Now I'm never going to be a size 8!!!! There was a point last year where I looked and felt amazing!!! But I had the time to go to the gym, and someone kicking my butt into gear, to feel motivated when I gave up on myself.

But life kinda gets in your way!!! Time poor!!! Budget restrictions, kids and their social lives.......yeah I know all excuses!!! But its a circle that I continue and continue and continue and...you understand. And after turning 40, well that's just another thing altogether, Losing 5 kilos in a week use to be easy for me, now I'm lucky to lose 500 grams, only to put a kilo on the week after.

So as always, we have our New Years resolutions! Well I'm attempting a pre New Years promise in the hope that it has some kind of different ring to it, to help in anyway at all!!!!!

Happy New Year's people, and good luck with any of your  2014 resolutions!!!!!   

Where have I been?????

Oh My Goodness,

I cant believe its been so long since I was on here......

So much can happen in a year, and this particular year has definitely had its ups and downs.

Positive notes, we have been busy working hard, one of my darling children has been successful with his natural talent, singing. He competed in his first ever competition with a second and third.

I myself am now working permanent part time five days a week.....no day to myself, with which I am struggling with. Just the mundane chore of washing clothes and the hope that there are socks in pairs, that return.

My partner is absolutely loving his job at the moment. On the down side he has to work away, but we are saving to get married in the near future, Fiji calling!!!! Bula!!!!

Not so positive

My youngest son has had the bad luck this year.
He was involved in high jump at school, and tore his paetella and chipped his knee cap. Absolutely painful stuff!! An operation, 6 weeks in a straight leg cast, 7 weeks in a leg brace, missing out on his football and being able to run around, crushed him, and his zest for smiling.

Though he has some amazing friends, that came to visit him, had wheelchair races against pushbikes, and kept his spirits up as best 10yr olds can.

However with his physio and rehab, he has discovered a love of swimming, and thanks to our amazing friend, who owns a swim school, He is loving being in the water and active again.

My partner and I have discovered the joy some people get in trying to bring you down, and continually want to know what's going on in our lives....yep.. We have STALKERS!!!!!

Now it probably wouldn't be that bad if we were making money, and trying to get snapped by paparazzi, and our lives were magazine story material......No these people, and I wont name and shame, cant get past the fact that we are happy, and want to lie, make up stories, and spread rumours, so that they look good and put us down.

Well the year 2014, Im not putting up with it. So consider this your notice from me, to get your own life, and stop worrying about ours.


Everyone have a lovely Christmas and I will see ya all in the New Year!!!!

Got Engaged!!! No need to get married tomorrow!!!

Hi all!!!!

Yes I know its been forever since i have written anything, (interesting) about whats been going on in the life of Leeselou!!!

For those of you that read my informative blog ( hilarious??) , I have returned from our fabulous holiday to Fiji ( including vomiting children, dioarrhea, sore back and lots of rain).... Engaged!!!!

Yes! I am now in the land of the titled Fiancee!!! Which is quite exciting when introducing significant other as Fiancee, rather than partner..boyfriend??? the man I live with!!

Fiancee got down on bended knee in front of myself and the children, and proposed, right before we were heading out the door to get on the plane to Fiji ( awesome tactic as I hate flying, and took my mind off eveything else)! Before he proposed, Fiancee visited my dad and asked his permission, and went and told his mum and dad as well, which I thought was soooooo romantic and shows the true gentleman he is.

Now we have been together, nearly three years. We are both extremely ( some would say overboard) in love with each other and couldnt be happier.

So is there a rush to get married straight away????

Stay tuned!!!!

Wow!!!! Where have you been????

Where does the time go??? No seriously!!!!

Its been too long since I have updated, and I ask myself what have I been doing that has made me lose track of so much time???

It's never just one thing though is it???

We can say...work, family, sporting commitments, work....totally not managing our time properly...birthdays, engagements, lunch out on your only day off....the same day you should be mowing lawns, cleaning out that garage, or pantry....try to catch up with friends!!!

Exhausted??? I am!!!

Not to mention that I am now busy packing ( yes I can hear you all now...Lucky me) for our holiday to Fiji!!

Now, we are not rich by any means....but we have saved long and hard for two years for this holiday. Every spare coin, $5 note if your lucky to have one left in your wallet before pay day, went into a tin. No holiday on credit for us ( not that there is anything wrong with that)..we chose to do it this way.

We were also very lucky with the generosity of our fabulous friends that helped us with the gift of spending money, for our 40th birthday.

So we are hoping for a very relaxing holiday where the children will get to experience another culture and to perhaps realise how lucky and blessed they are to live here!!!

Happy Travels peoples and stay safe!!

Life Experiences

Wow, what a whirlwind month it has been.

I thought I was busy before turning 40. Since then I have not stopped. Trips to the State of Origin in Sydney ( amazing, we won, but lost the series), wanted to cry.

 Another trip to Sydney to visit the Good Food and Wine show. Cannot wait to go again, amazing and well worth the entry fee. By the end of the day I had tried so many things, I could hardly taste anything.

Then a visit to the brazilian bbq place in Darling Harbour ( Brazzier, i think). You purchase either the small or large option, and they proceed to bring you skewers of all kinds of different meats, which they carve right onto your plate. Beef, chicken, pork, sausage, pineapple with side salads, and thats just the small. Amazing experience and food overload.

Experiences would not be without a trip to see Lady Ga Ga. Now to all those Ga Ga little monster fans, she is a very talented performer, musician and singer. That is however where my praises stop.

I have been to alot of concerts, and I have no way in one word, to describe what this concert was like. Costume changes?? yes. Controversy at its best?? Yes. Unacceptable for children under 16yrs??? yes.

I was sitting next to a young lady, 12 years of age, who was attending her first concert ( no Bieber for her). I wanted to cover her eyes, and question the mother as to how much research went into what the concert was all about.

Now alot of the innuendos went over this young ladies head, who was totally in her element singing away to her idols songs. However some of the vulgarity was so blatantly in your face, i just didnt know what to think.

Anywayz, as I said, I am not knocking Ga Ga, and am grateful to my friends that bought me the ticket, ( she also went with me, and still has no explanation herself).

Just have to put it down to another on of lifes experiences.

Lol, Cheers!!!